160.9 and heading in the right direction. Had a perfect protocol day yesterday which is always easy for me during the week. I need to keep it up until next Tuesday. I want that 159 and normal BMI!!!

161.9...pretty disappointed in myself. Wanted to call it quits today because I have a girls night in next Saturday night that I was looking forwad to being in P3 for that but I have to remain strong and hold out for another week. I really need to get to 159 for my own sanity! I have hit it twice only to blow it. This round has been much tougher and it really doesn't pay to deviate at all on this protocol. Feel like I wasted my time this round. Not a complete waste, still down 11 lbs. or so for round two. I keep my journal at home and I can never remember from one week to the next. I do know my starting weigh and roughly my starting weight for round two. To date it's a total of 34.4 lbs with one week to go.

160.4....I just keep telling myself pounds and inches baby. If I don't, I'm going to get discouraged real quick. My movitator, the scale, sure isn't cooperating much this week. I'm going to give it until next Wednesday and if I'm still not losing much, I'm throwing in the towell for this round. I was only going until June second anyway (started April 25th). Regardless, I'm going to take the eight week break between rounds two and three and hit it hard for the last 15 lbs or so. I really want to get to 159 to reach my first goal and then it would be 156.3 to reach the second goal (an overall 40 lb loss). My ultimate goal is now set at 139 lbs. Sure was hoping to reach both of my original goals in this round. We'll just have to wait and see.

R2P2 Day 27

160.6...Okay already I get it...now more cheats. Geeze, its taking almost a week to get back to my lowest weight this round (160). Guess that's what I needed to whip me into shape and stay focused over the long weekend. On a positive note, clothes are just hanging on me. I can do this, need to get to 159 to be within normal BMI....oh so close.

160.9. Definately still paying for the cheat on Saturday. Still 1.9 away from my first goal. Hopefully that will happen this week. I definately stayed away from social situations during my first protocol and that was extremely helpful in staying true to the program. I'm a bit worried about the long weekend and some parties the following weekend but I have to remember that this is more important than a few cocktails!! LIW will be on June 3rd. and then I will start another round after 8 weeks. People are really starting to notice the change in my figure and it's really rewarding. I'm excited about reaching my 50 lb goal but that is defintely going to be a round three thing. That's OK though, I'd almost rather reset again at this weight and stabilize again before hitting the next goal.

161.4 today. Having a much more difficult time staying on task this round and I'm extremely disappointed in myself. Food wise I was fine all weekend but Saturday night I had some wine instead of dinner and not only broke protocal but felt like crap the next day. Note to self...don't drink on an empty stomach!! Yesterday I weighed 160 so that was short lived excitement. I knew I would pay and hopefully I will remember the feeling as well so it doesn't happen again. The only positive thing to come out of that is I finally had a BM. I swear it seems like it's been a week. I definately need to figure out how to get a better handle on that. On a more positive note, I did a little shopping over the weekend and walked into a dressing room with 4 items and walked out of the store with 4 new items...that NEVER happens to me. Most of the time I don't like the way it looks or it's too tight. That was a very rewarding experience since I was definately down to a size 12 and probably could have gotten into a 10 but I didn't push it because I really liked what I saw. I don't care what size you are if you wear it too tight, you look like you're trying to put a 10lb sack of potatoes into a 5lb bag...not good!! Also cleaned out my closet and have almost nothing left that fits. I bagged most of it up to give to my housekeeper and the things that I really loved I have kept for now to see if I can get them tailored and also out of fear that I will yoyo. That is not an option and I am thinking positively so my plan is to give myself a couple of months and either tailor them or donate them at that time. Just being a bit skeptical I guess but it's also hard to part with some of the stuff because I have to wear a suit every day for work and I have some really nice pieces that would be expensive to replace. Don't get me wrong, I'm DONE with those sizes but it's just a little harder mentally to give them away. So, come August, they either go to the tailer or to the Goodwill. I also discovered that I don't have any summer shorts. Every single pair I had looked ridiculous and my daughters told me so. Looks like I will need to go shopping again!! I have two more weeks left for this round and then I have to take an eight week break between rounds 2 and 3. I'll reward myself after the two weeks with some shorts to get me through the summer.

Weighed in at 163.1 this morning. Just 4.1 lbs to reach my first goal of being within normal BMI. SOOOOOOOO excited this morning when I put on a pair of jeans that have been in my closet with the tags still on them for over 5 years. I loved the button fly style when I bought them and also recall that they were purchased as inspiration pants for some diet I was going to start. Needless to say, they have been way in the back of the closet for many years. I have tried them on a couple of times in the last month or so with no success. The last time I tried them on which was at the beginning of this round, I could get all but the first button done so I was starting to feel good about them. Well, this morning they slid right on and buttoned easily. I woke my daughter up because I was so excited. He comment was...That's crazy! Husband was pretty impressed too!! Nothing like a little motivation to get me through the weekend!! 18 more days to go on this round.

Down to 163.7 this morning and couldn't be happier. Only 4.2 lbs to get to within a normal BMI and that is the first goal I had set for myself. That was the most important thing for me and second is my goal weight. I had given a bunch of clothes away that were too small for me before I started the program because I had a friend who was having great success on another plan and was in need of some transitional clothes. She has since grown out of those and gave them back. I was so excited to try them on because I vividly remember trying them all on before I bagged them up and nothing fit. They wouldn't button in most cases and in some cases I couldn't even get them over my hips. I am elated to report that they all fit now and are even loose. They aren't going to fit for long! That means I'm rapidy approaching a size 10 which is unbelievable to me. The thought of reaching a single digit number hasn't entered my mind in years and now I feel like it may even be obtainable. Now there's some new motivation. This weekend I'm going to clean out my closet and box everything up that is too big...which is most of it. Having all that extra room in the closet should provide some visual motivation as well.

I'm an even 165 which is back to my lowest weight on this round after my very first cheat. Mother's Day weekend I blew it and felt really bad about it. It has taken me two days to make the correction for the nearly three pounds that I gained. I'm not going to be too hard on myself since I had a perfect first round including the three weeks of no starch and no sugar followed by another three weeks of regular eating so I'll chalk it up to experience. Not to mention I started TOM today so that must have definately played a role in my weakness for chocolate over the weekend. Last two days have been protocol perfect and I had 1 and 1.9 losses. I've decided to do another longer round this time because I feel like I lost some ground with the bad weekend and don't want to end on Friday with TOM. I'm going to make it a 40 day round and then give myself a break for the summer (following phase 3 and 4). That may be hard to do because I will be anxious to meet goal so I'll have to see where I'm at towards the beginning of July. The first couple of weeks of each round is much more difficult for me hunger wise than the last part of the round so it's almost easier to go longer once I get into the groove. Historically it takes me about 15 days or so before I'm not feeling hungry or thinking about food. I still get hungry by the time I'm ready for my next meal but I'm not counting the hours until I can eat again which is a big bonus. I'm also getting ready to try HHCG with some additional additives that I read about on another blog which I am very excited about. My reasoning for this is because the place I get my HCG shots from has it on backorder and I'm not ready to end my round.

I am testing the waters here to see if I can figure this blogging thing out. I'll have a real post for you tomorrow! This is kind of scary.