Well I'm back at it and pretty much disgusted with myself because I knew I was gaining weight and did nothing to prevent it. Gained all but 10 pounds back and have plenty of excuses. Had some health issues that caused nausea and dizzyness so I guess I just ate to feel better. I did come to the conclusion when I was loading for this round that I had been pretty much loading for some time. Now that I have a week under my belt, I can laugh about that but I do need to do some soul searching to correct that.

Anyway, started back at 187.3 and gaind 2.5 for loading. Yesterday I weighted in at 180.2 and today 180.4 which was disappointing but I did a circuit training class last night which is probably playing a part in that .2 gain.

My first goal will be to reach normal BMI which for me will be 159. Then I would like to get back to where I left off (147) and see how I feel. Ideally I would like 135 but with this diet, numbers are different than they used to be and for me that may be too thin. At 147 I'm wearing a size 8 with a few 6's...depending on the designer. I felt really great at that weight and told myself that I wasn't going to be one of those girls who was never happy, always finding faults with their weight. I look back at myself when I was a teenager and even though I had one of the nicest figures around, I always thought I could be 5 pounds lighter. what I would do to have that figure now and I didn't even appreciate it then!!!

I have noticed at this upper end of the scale that it takes me so much longer to change sizes. To go from a 12/14 (again, depending on the designer) to a 10 is like 20+ lbs. Then to a 10 is only another 10 or 12 lbs and an 8 just a few more. Who know's what I'd be at 135! I just know with this diet I wiegh more but wear a smaller size than when I was at a particular weight prior to HCG.

For me the first 10 days is really tough mentall and emotionally. It's not so much hunger as trying to avoid social situations, getting into a routine, not having a ton of energy, etc. so now I am trying to decide how to break up my rounds because I definately need to do more than one. When I originally started HCG I did a 42 day round and lost 23 lbs but I loose about 18 doing a 23 day round so it almost seems more logical to do shorter rounds. The only problem is that 10 day starting peiord that is so difficult and the time you have to take in between.